The rabbit hole imprisons an infinite amount of precious time and mind space to be lost FOREVER; it detains perpetual possibilities to get lost within, including and certainly not limited to: fears, doubts, regrets, anxieties, cheating spouses, possible job promotions or eliminations, crashing airplanes, robberies, identity theft, and so on and on and on.
Read MoreWe all hear what hear, see what we see, and feel what we feel, based upon our own individual experience of the world, most of which has been left unexamined. Well, at least for me it has. Much of what I see and most of my choices are based upon my likes and dislikes. And my likes and dislikes are chalk full of conditions, agendas, false assumptions, and a distorted process of perceiving. Anais Nin says it best, “We do not see things as they are, we see them as we ARE.”
Read MoreAs long as I’m looking out the window of the bus for my next destination, or listening to the gossip and opinions being spewed by the women seated in front of me, as long as I am focused on what is outside of me, I will ride that bus for the rest of my life, totally convinced that the next stop will bring me the fulfillment I so desire.
Read MoreThe fear of loss, of change, of stepping into unfamiliar territory spiraled into fourteen plus years of hurt, regret, blame, shame, abuse, and the list could go on and on and on. It’s like the cliche imagery of holding a pile of sand in your palm, when you close your hand, when you try to hold onto something too tightly, it slips right through your finger tips.
Read MoreAs I continued to grow up, I considered myself fat, even earned the nickname, “big girl,” and made it my mission in life to get skinny. My left eye became the fat lens and my right eye became the skinny lens and this became my entire view of the world. I couldn’t see a vacation as an opportunity for exploration and discovery, beyond whether or not I was going to have to put on a bathing suit.
Read MoreSo next time you find yourself out there chasing something, whether it be a job, a relationship, a feeling, an asana, a brownie, or the latest I-phone….check yourself….check if you might be giving up the extraordinary potential available to you RIGHT NOW because you are lost in a mindless game of Hide and Seek. Regardless of whether you are hiding or seeking, you lose! You are either lost in an endless pursuit of dissatisfying expectations OR you are hiding behind experiences that have ALREADY happened and are IMPOSSIBLE to re-create.
Our western culture has treated the ego like the plague and has flooded our inboxes with messages toting the subject line as: THE EGO IS BAD. As if we should develop a vaccine to rid ourselves of it entirely! Which by the way, would be a disaster because our egos were designed to serve us….except that we have somehow got it flipped around and backwards, just like the quote, and we have ended up SERVING our egos.
On first thought you might assume that ignorance equals “not knowing.” BUT I would like to dispute that interpretation and say quite the opposite….Ignorance is: “thinking you know”…key word to observe here is: thinking. Because when we involve thinking, we involve our perceptions, our cultural programming, our prejudices and so forth. This extends an invitation for many, many discrepancies ….and in my book, discrepancy and bliss do NOT hold hands or even share an intimate glance from opposite ends of the room!
Unfortunately and fortunately I was privy to the horrifying specifics of my father’s death. I refuse to dance around it, to shove his suffering underneath the couch cushions with the stale crumbs and abandoned change. I refuse to closet my suffering into misguided channels through which only more suffering and low vibration are bound to manifest. This leaves me standing face to face in the bright light of day, ready to expose the mystery man of death himself…
Read MoreI went about life like I was some kind of average human, with no control over my mind. My likes and dislikes, my jaded outlook, and my misguided intentions brought on one suffering after the next…..like weeds in the garden, the sufferings seemed to be multiplying by the year. This ignorant thinking lead to one bad habit after the next, which created MORE symptoms of suffering, which then required MORE “bandaids” and quick fixes to be ashamed of…..until it finally became like I was two completely different people, the person that everyone else saw, and the one ONLY I KNEW….. the bad, the ugly, indifferent, unintelligent, and unworthy girl that was living a complete lie.
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